As kids, he {God} has us perceive monsters coming to get us; as adults who think they’re beyond this whole monster business, we grow blind to the monster’s identity and full of guilt at how we’ve cooperated with its tricks.
And it’s here where we become trapped: we train ourselves to get used to the discomfort and alienation of evil, since the trick of sin isn’t so much the evil itself as much as the self-hatred it engenders, the sense of that we are no longer the sons of the Father and worthy of facing him, and so we build our lives, build cultures, around the pain of this identity loss.
Dino Gerard D’Agata, Praying with
Lord, when we are tempted to define ourselves
by the compromise that sets in when we do evil,
by the feeling of guilt and recrimination,
lift us with your grace and help us see
that our cooperation with evil is the source of this,
and that you only stand by, ready to make us
new in every instant. Amen.
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